My life is falling apart desperately, if only you know what i meant. People change drastically around me. The only person whom i could talk to is just my best bestie, *sign*. I wonder what exactly my life would lead to. I spent my money on girls that don't really care much, just to forget *her*.
Fxck you Bitches ! Damn frustrated ! My birthday is coming near and my wish is that i have a good life ahead because i really hate the feelings i am having now. It really hurt badly. Saturday is along day ahead, I must make up my mind either go to M.O.S or out with my Doob clan. Really can't choose. Enjoy then Suffer or Suffer then Enjoy ? Gahh ! Just now i had my malay prelims and it was like damn short which i did only for about 5 minutes and slept for 25 minutes. Right after that, i went home and think about wifey again, Luckily did not breakdown which i almost did.

13th - 14 th..
i am feeling damn sad.
missing wifey every damn fucking minutes :'(
i've regretted my decisions! God help me, darn it !
Cried alone in the night like a stupid little kid & who said a boy doesn't cry for someone he loved.
*Sign* Luckily god gave me a good friend to accompany me & thanks Fuchinu <3
Fuch is having a bad time too and i wonder why do we have to face this kind of hard time. Today Fuch came down Tampines & it's a very painful time - she peel my wound ! But it was worth it! Get to meet her up & amazingly, she didn't put on her make up. Haha! She is the best of the best, until she fulfill her dreams to migrate to California =_+"
Now, is exzamination time, i'm stress thinking of wifey and exams. Gah !I NEED YOU !
end of my story for now, missing her each day :'(

The song that really meant to me is Everywhere that sang by Yellowcard.

P.S: Arep, i couldn't get the full song of the song you wanted me to put up & the only i managed to get it by Michelle Branch. sorry.

Yesterday, was a damn tiring day for my friends and myself too. Okeh, i'll drop topic first.
In the afternoon, i met my old times brothers and went to have a meeting. We was like at the coffee shop for almost 4 hours. Then in the night, i went to 853 - planning to scare the Mac Riders by being a "pochong" but we end up getting chase to the mosque and it's all because of us playing noisily at the playground. Oh ya ! I saw Karmillah, and i really really miss her. Haha. Then we ran to the mosque and sat there till late. I was totally despair.

Anyway, today i was really bored. Went out with dad riding his vespa and go to Pasir Ris then went home. I guess i slept a lot today. *boredom*

another blog for today..
at last saw ica online!!!
hahahaha!!
she change no. with her mum!!
and didn't tell me....
damn.. people change u know..
hais... damn2 bored these daes..
hais..... nobody to contact..
only person that reply is FUCHINU
my damn best bestie.............
PLEASE PEOPLE REPLY ME!!!

each day my life is getting more bored each day...
no plans for weekends yet.... im at school damn2
bored.... i miss my bestie and so called my wifey
hais (sad face) ....

Another post of the day.

Apparently, i just find that my life totally sucks. For the past few days i had confess my feelings to my 'wifey' and it's just end up into a quarrel and i had regretted for what i have said. I felt bloody damn miserable now, just wish that she could understand because i really really love her, other than my besties of course. People come and go she said. I just do not want to leave her. Why do i end up in this way ? Hate my destiny in life. I know nobody is perfect. *sign*

The only person to cheer me up now is my besties, but some of them are like changing and i was like usually by myself without accompany. My life is a total mess up. People talk about me and Ayuni. C'mon, what the fxck is this shits. We are just friends . I think you people should get that clear and nothing more than that. Get a life people.

Anyway, Wifey, i just wish that you could understand

life just suck with those mother fucking spammers!!!!
don't u dare spam me cos i'll make sure you're dead!!
ur not important to me but why should u talk
bout me?? hey u are a damn coward!!
tell ur name damnit!!!! just to let u know
im not trying to make enemies but u just make me do it!!

hello.
say thank you to *someone* okeh.
assholes, big cum.